wilted.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

was doing a try-out for xxx's cake just now. (eh i hope she doesn't read my blog)
thought the cake recipe was fine,
just that my oven's always very "hot"
and things always get burnt before the instructed time.
hahaha..
yea so it was rather brown but taste was good:)
i excluded sour cream though, since i could neither find it at shopnsave nor ntuc.
replaced it with few drops of lime juice, and more cream cheese and flour.
hope nothing goes wrong on fri (:

now that i have more free time i've been thinking about what to do with my life after school reopens.
will definitely continue working at MTC though it's not really a good company.
all because of the good pay (12.50/hr after i enters poly)
since when have i became so realistic?
choosing money over happiness.
i hate this thing about myself, but i got to come up with my own pocket money.
definitely not because my family can't make it.
it's just that i want to be independent. financially.

don't want to take up too many jobs either, i got to concentrate on studies soon.
i've been pondering whether to quit TPS since ages ago, and i probably will.
why why, i've been so happy working there.
again, because of money.
something without a life, without a soul, yet able to control a person unconditionally. ironic.

then i do wonder,
whether will people at TPS miss me once i left.
cuz now that i'm working so little over there,
it feels like i've drifted apart from everyone.
it's not anybody's fault, just a matter of time i guess.
seriously, i think my english is too mediocre to express all my feelings
i'm not someone who just know how to laugh, play and all.
it's just that sometimes it's better not to affect the mood of those around you, no?
i dunno who am i as a person in people's heart.
all i know is that i really love you people from TPS(:

how can there be a workplace without politics?
but yea, y'all had convinced me that it still exists:)
in MTC there's just this barrier between everyone and I dunno why.
and no matter how friendly Max is the things he say always makes me feel that there's motive behind the words.
very unlike TPS.
maybe i should be old enough to learn to guard myself from those around me.
i don't want.
why must we be so wary of each other?
if no one hides any motive then everything will be fine, isn't it?
aiya i dunno.

sian it's a rainy day, so gloomy.

on a random note,
i want to move to livejournal or maybe xanga.
tired of blogger already.

it's such a boring post.
don't like :(

posted @awilted-rose.blogspot.com { 10:47 PM }