Wilted Rose

2009-04-13T08:28:00.000-07:00

Keiko's very belated birthday celebration on Fri.
Marina Barrage was damn nice, think it's a great place for couples (:
umbrella has to come in handy though,
there's no covered walkway to the shuttle bus pick up point from the station.
that day was raining, thunderstorm and all so got really drenched w/o the umbrella
yilin dear was sweet enough to fetch me from the drop-off point at the barrage! :D
yea so everything was great, brought keiko's birthday cake, mango strudel (:
and yilin's sandwiches were damn nice!(:
loved the seafood one cuz like never eaten before? (like sound so suagu!)

my painstakingly-baked cheesecake for the birthday:) the brown thing is the digestive crackers topping. Looks ok eh, er no?

super lots of people. cuz it's ol' goody goody friday (:

the structure looks good standing on it's on like that, and yea lots of people flying kite!
should try it some time, bit scary though, seeing the kite from far with just a string attached :/

i like the background, the clouds make me feel so lazy (:

big eyes. small eyes.

SMALL EYES! tsk.

i think i will miss yilin as much as she misses me now.
hahahaha.
i like it that she's direct and always being herself.
doubt i can find someone like this in np lo:/
well?

eh girl doesn't mean that if I don't call you I've forgotten you alr le k!(:
It's just that I've got no life and you know it, and I know NJ kid like you is busy too.
hahaha 4 years of friendship aren't for nothing know!
I still remember how you couldn't blow the flute during sec 1 band try-out and psycho-ed me to join guides eh :D heh heh.

take a look back at the days in reminiscence when we fought hard for Os and you thought you would never get into NJ and I thought I would really fail my Os badly. I think without your motivation I wouldn't have done it eh (:

we got albert to carry the birthday girl, and i think they look really sweet, yea?(:

it's really rare for us to have such a outing like this, and i think when school reopens chances may be slimmer?
it's alright for keiko and me since we'll be in the same school.
but well.. CT people are still the best :/

Pei Qi's advanced birthday celebration at night.
As usual, everything was crazy!
hahaha..
well it seems like it's one of the last few gatherings before i'm leaving? hmmm:/
i hope we'll still keep in touch cuz it's been so great working with everyone, bonding tgt, etc.
got to leave early though due to tuition@ Taman Jurong the next morning D:

look at the spread, er, in the merge of finishing? hah :)

satisfied birthday girl: Pei Qi.
cake's from Angie's Choice. Bought the same one for Yilin's birthday last year.
cookies n'cream, but the cookies seemed to be limited as always, hmm?:/
Sweet Secret's still me numba one nehxxx

photos weren't of high quality, mostly candid lol.

hi wanyi? hahaha

I think this angle makes a person's face looks ROUND! heh heh.

yini going hysterical, as always (:

i think this pic looks damn SCANDALOUS hahaha

eh i think i smile better with teeth but :)

with sweet:) and i think it's very very rare for him to smile in photos!!
i like this one despite the bad photo quality cuz we were BOTH SMILING :)
like one in 101.

and i was really into the camwhore mood cuz the lighting was fantastic!

another poor quality photo, with me having SMALL eyes.
but both smiling yea? (:

i think Fir has got the tai-tai look i dunno why. lol.

Flea Market with yilin on sunday!
it's i think the biggest one if i'm not too wrong, and yea it was HUGE.
like 3-storeys?
and it was my first time to a flea market:) (suagu, i know)
yea i think we both had this lobang from ruby? who happened to be selling her stuff there.
things were damn cheap, but you can never be an impulsive buyer cuz prices started going down towards the end of the sale.
the best part was the bargaining, and i think yilin's still the ultimate!
hahaha.
she haggled a $10 topshop top for $6, then $8 but i think the seller was persistant, oh well ):
great deal though.

and the loots!:D

$10 kimono top, haggled for $8

floral blouse@ 5$, doesn't look good here, but i think it's nice when you wear spaghetti top inside then tie a knot at the hem or something (:

$5 m)phosis top haggled to $4.50 :)

$8 shorts from outfitters which was bargained till 6 bucks.

$15 Levis shorts haggled to $8. I think this is the best hahaha.

eh i think i sound so cheapo but this is what you do in flea market what, no?!

yea happy happy(:
i think it's a good way to de-stress lo..
really!!!

i feel so dead now, cuz Sat is CT's speech day, and I've yet to buy my YA uni.
actually i think wearing the YA tee is already enough, but I think Miss Liew doesn't think so?
hmmm..
i think buying it is quite a waste of money cuz i don't think we will often get to wear it.
well well...
ok main pt now is that i have yet to buy it!
how?!
i don't mind making a trip down to the HQ myself first then buy for Jas Keiko and Yilin since we cfm can't coordinate your timing.
probably tmr?
hmm...

kop-ed from GGS's web
i really cannot imagine myself in this cuz it looks kind of old.
but no choice? haha..

checked my time-table just now.
ending school at 4, 5pm everyday, bit sian :/
fri's the best though, 12noon, woots.
i think it's quite a bad coincidence that the guy is going to be in the same class as me but well...
my class's like majority guys.
10 guys at least and 6 girls if i'm correct.
i'm not complaining, just that it's a bit imbalanced?
haha..

i'm looking forward to school, but seems like there's only one person whom i know i the class.
and it's not helping that i got to get into the study mood.
so much for the 6months-holiday yea:/
sian-ed.
on a brighter note,
CTSS speech day and carnvial this sat! (:
yilin's going up the stage for being one of the tops during Os :D
they should invite me too, for making such a good progress^^
okok, bad joke bad joke.

got to get ready and teach tuition soon.
sian.
饶了我吧 D:

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090413/tts-norway-sex-offbeat-c1b2fc3.html
I think this is rather comical, can go take a look? lol

2009-04-05T22:47:00.000-07:00

was doing a try-out for xxx's cake just now. (eh i hope she doesn't read my blog)
thought the cake recipe was fine,
just that my oven's always very "hot"
and things always get burnt before the instructed time.
hahaha..
yea so it was rather brown but taste was good:)
i excluded sour cream though, since i could neither find it at shopnsave nor ntuc.
replaced it with few drops of lime juice, and more cream cheese and flour.
hope nothing goes wrong on fri (:

now that i have more free time i've been thinking about what to do with my life after school reopens.
will definitely continue working at MTC though it's not really a good company.
all because of the good pay (12.50/hr after i enters poly)
since when have i became so realistic?
choosing money over happiness.
i hate this thing about myself, but i got to come up with my own pocket money.
definitely not because my family can't make it.
it's just that i want to be independent. financially.

don't want to take up too many jobs either, i got to concentrate on studies soon.
i've been pondering whether to quit TPS since ages ago, and i probably will.
why why, i've been so happy working there.
again, because of money.
something without a life, without a soul, yet able to control a person unconditionally. ironic.

then i do wonder,
whether will people at TPS miss me once i left.
cuz now that i'm working so little over there,
it feels like i've drifted apart from everyone.
it's not anybody's fault, just a matter of time i guess.
seriously, i think my english is too mediocre to express all my feelings
i'm not someone who just know how to laugh, play and all.
it's just that sometimes it's better not to affect the mood of those around you, no?
i dunno who am i as a person in people's heart.
all i know is that i really love you people from TPS(:

how can there be a workplace without politics?
but yea, y'all had convinced me that it still exists:)
in MTC there's just this barrier between everyone and I dunno why.
and no matter how friendly Max is the things he say always makes me feel that there's motive behind the words.
very unlike TPS.
maybe i should be old enough to learn to guard myself from those around me.
i don't want.
why must we be so wary of each other?
if no one hides any motive then everything will be fine, isn't it?
aiya i dunno.

sian it's a rainy day, so gloomy.

on a random note,
i want to move to livejournal or maybe xanga.
tired of blogger already.

it's such a boring post.
don't like :(

2009-04-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

finally.
free time for me to blog
FINALLY.
woots.
it's been sooo long since i've got some time on my own.
really.

everyday's student care in the morning, waking up at 6am.
then tuition till evening or night, then settle all the stuff needed to be done
mark worksheets, meet sweet, get ready for school, go out with family, etc etc.
it's like all the things supposed to be done in 12 hours were squeezed into a weeny time span of 3 hours
Sat is like tuition mania.
Morning go Taman Jurong for one-to-one tuition, then 2 classes at MTC till evening and next all the commitments.
Sunday TPS!
Like everyday no off day for me.
yea, it's TOTAL no off day at all.
hahaha...

Well quitted student care and Wed was my last day!
I will definitely miss the kids there but i need my long awaited break too.
Afterall, I can still see them whenever I go for my classes eh:)

It's been a month plus since I have taken a full day break,
to go out for the whole day with sweet, out with the girls, with my family or even just stone at home and do nothing.
but i think the next off day for me is probably next sun when my parents ask me to go batam with them?:/
tues to thurs NP BA Orientation and yea managed to take off for the afternoon classes then going to MTC for evening ones.
The rest would be tuition and tuition and MORE TUITION.
well, at least don't have to wake up so early ba.
I'm contented (:

This post's so boring, I'm talking about my everyday hectic schedule and mundane life.
Or is there a life to start with?:/
tsk tsk tsk, I've like been working non-stop everyday right after my O level ended.
I think I deserve to buy myself something worth pampering?
hmmm..
I dunno, I want invest on a goood good bag.
But well, you know that chew see pui is damn cheapo and niiiaaaooo hahahaha (:

Went gym with sweet just now before my tuition and I'm dead tired.
Going for Speech Day rehearsal tmr so probably got to wake up at 7?
though there's tuition marathon tmr :(
I feel quite guilty that I can't commit though I'm a YA so yea...
It's been so long since I've went back to see the girls
and I wonder when will Miss Liew send us down to the HQ to get the uniforms

and I wonder if students know that I don't want tuitions as much as them :/

2009-02-23T19:54:00.001-08:00

with great power comes great responsibility.
i don't like.

2009-02-22T22:39:00.000-08:00

my blog's so dead Carene says it's rotting.
Last week was a rather happening one,
and I'm now technically handling 3 jobs like woots?
hahaha..
I hope I can cope with it, and I believe I can :)

My primary job is Service Crew.
My secondary's Student Care Teacher cum Nanny.
hahaha..
Got to wake up at 6am everyday to open the door for the kids in Max Tuition Centre.
So it all ends at 2.30 when I will go TPS, with an 1.5 hr break in between from 1130 after I send the lower Pri kids to school till 1300 when I fetch the upper primary kids.
Lots of patience involved yea :)
cuz the upper sec kids can really get extremely stubborn.
Still, I'm ok with the job though the salary's rather low.
The starting pay's only $420/month.
It's all about the passion cuz I love kids a lot :)

So I was thinking maybe during my break if I don't feel like slacking I can actually distribute flyers and promote about MTC.
A deal clinched is a commission of $30:)
So if I decide not to slack, I can st least earn extra $200/ month.
Well we will see how it goes, hehe.

The tertiary job is a tutor.
yup I went for the interview few days ago,
and Max's rather impressed, just that I dropped A Math.
So I admitted to him that I really have no confidence in teaching Math.
instead of teaching math and english, I was appointed to teach only english.
hence, hired as a Sec 3 English tutor, every Sat from 1030 to 1200
after which I can still go TPS work
full shift should be no problem:)
The basic pay is $8, more than other jobs, but less than what a tutor normally earns.
What matters is the experience, so I'm fine with it.

Since I've been like speaking Singlish after the Os
I think I should make it a habit to speak proper English cuz like not very nice now that I'm going to guide the sec 3 students.
O Level stage omg.

I went for my first teaching experience yesterday which was quite ok :)
they needed a relief teacher urgently so was told to help.
P4 Chinese class as starter, and I spoke perfect Mandarin w/o any mixture of English eh!
hahaha elephant skin.
Got to be very firm and fierce with them, cuz they really lacked discipline.
I made a boy cried cuz the class was told to complete their work before they can go home
(so that I could mark)
and he happened to be the last.
hence haha..
I was shocked but Max said it's fine.
Sec 2 Math class afterwards, and it was much better with them cuz they knew how to think about their future already.
Just that I don't like it when the students go " 'cher you jc/poly?"
and they'll go "walao you damn lousy" when I gave them my reply.
It's not the way to judge somebody's intelligence seriously.
I could have made it into a JC, just that I chose not to go to one except SA science isn't it?
aiya well just take it that they are still young and ignorant I guess.

And it's very funny that I need to have different attitudes when being SC and tutor/nanny.
cuz when you're the SC, customers are always right.
when you're the tutor/nanny, the teacher's always right!
when you're the SC, you got to be courteous and sweet.
when you're the teacher/nanny, you got to be firm and fierce.
Like total split personality hahahaha.

Kk, off to JP now.
Going there to get the Fancl facial washing powder.
Cuz my skin's really bad nowdays.
Probably cuz of bestfriend.
yea it's in red hahaha i'm damn lame.
I think I'm really lucky since I don't get those really get those ultimate cramps, only achings and break outs eh :)
It's time to take good care of my skin, been long since I've applied mask:/

on a random note,
It's my off day tomorrow! :D
meeting YiLin dearest.
and sweet, I miss you!
Must work hard for your exams k!:)

and a self to-do list:
-Must leave some time for sweet/YiLin
-Ask my friends out soon eh!
-Make space in my schedule to train the girls for the Speech Day Parade

2009-02-16T07:26:00.000-08:00

I'M S-E-V-E-N-T-E-E-N :)

old..

thank you Pei Ling, Cindy, Hui Ling, Hui Zhen, Shan Ling, Guo Lian, Samantha, Yuen Yi for the greetings.
Ling Ling, Yi Ni, Firdaus, Jerry for the celebration.
Van and Moo for the planned surprise though not carried out :)).
And lastly Sweet, YiLin, Jas, Keiko and Audrey for going out with me today! :D
yea I know the number is small, but thanks a lot:)
I don't usually remember people's birthdays, let alone a greeting,
So I feel really bad.
But well...
I'm keeping it a good habit now by saving friends' birthday! :)

Alumni's BBQ wasn't really fun.
The enjoyable things were the people and teachers eh:)
It feels kind of sad seeing the SA people wearing the uni yet I'm not one of them
But well..
It's just that I really want school to reopen and be a student again:)
Still, it feels reaaallly good,
seeing those people that you have yet to meet for ages :)
Like Shang Jun, Shi Ying, Valerie, Pei Ling, Annabel, Lynn, ETC ETC ETC :)
Would have been better if moo and van had went though:(
Ya II MIZZ EUU :(
And yea the teachers! :)
Ms Ng, Mr Tan, Mrs Yong, Mr Chiang, Mr Chan! :D
woots.
Funny to have a looonnng talk before the BBQ though
There were even alumnus like already married with their families :0

and on a random note,
I think the generation is different now that the peer leaders put on their collar pins when we just chucked them aside during our times.
I think I've even lost mine.
Maybe the school had made it compulsory? Hah.

Anyway, spent a really great Valentine's Day with sweet.
definitely memorable and best, though not the first V Day.
Dinner at TPS, got a stalk of fully bloomed rose from the management :0
Thanks for the hand made gift, I really appreciate it :)
love love :)

Birthday firstly spent with Sweet at Botanic Garden :)
a bit random, but why not?:)
cuz anyway haven't been there before.
Weather was bad though:(
Hot and humid the first minute and rainy afterwards:(
Serene place with many many exotic plants, will definitely go there again:))
It's really rare to see all the many many species of plants in SG!

Met the girls at town afterwards:)
and YiLin dear was really nice to meet me despite falling sick
much appreciated :))
had Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao, cut cake.
Jas was thoughtful to get me the cake for her workplace and Keiko was really nice to bring it to me :)
though it looks tortured.. heh heh.
And I appreciate you girls for the presents:))
Yup yup I will definitely wear/use them :))
hahaha...

Celebration with family at night.
Good good, like really the best I've spent with my family :)
Like in the past, none would bother to remember my birthday.
Yet this year, it was really surprising that Dad even booked me one week in advance to celebrate my day:)
And he even took the initiative to buy me a cake after dinner even when I told him to save his money.
Come to think of it,
it's my first proper birthday cake from my family.
I was kind of touched, really.
Maybe they've realised, now, the true importance of family bonding?
For dad, definitely:)
Maybe people will only realise the importance of something once it's gone?
I still love my family deeply.
It's just that I'm really tired of all the quarrels and I choose not to talk while I'm at home.
No talk= Less arguments.
yea, silent is reeallly golden sometimes.
Well, see how it goes ba:)

I feel like helping to train the girls for Speech Day eh.
Not for this week since I've already received my schedule.
Maybe submit one day less every fortnight to help out, for now?
Hmm..

starting a second job after March at a Student Care Centre:)
Probation tmr, got to wake up at 6am.
Feels like school eh :)

a loooonnnng post, yet filled with happiness:)

2009-02-09T21:08:00.000-08:00

my nose is getting on my nerves.
i don't feel like working cuz I'm really tired from the continuous sneezing.
Still, not a good reason for me to get MC eh :(
sian.

2009-02-09T09:10:00.000-08:00

And finally..
I'm off for today :))
I've been working for 6 days consecutively,
and yes yes I've finally gotten my break :)
In fact,
I submitted less schedule for this week and I'm working only 28 hours for 4 days.
13 Feb off to prepare the V Day giftS (I won't forget my friends k!)
and CT alumni BBQ (few attending though :( )
14 Feb for 2nd monthsary cum Valentine's Day :D
yea, that's about it :)
Sidetracking a bit, I can't believe Monday's my birthday
It's like I've just finished celebrating YiLin's 16th
and woots, I'm celebrating my 17th.
I feel so ol' ol' ol' ol' OLD.
and I was reading Ruby's blog the other day.
3 years later, I would be 20
10 years later, I would be a mother.
Like "WHA", that's realllly fast.

So anyway, work's been fine despite the hectic schedule.
Just that it can get stressful being the cashier/ kanjiong which making the drinks at the bar.
I'm getting used to the new management which is good?
Then again, I feel like getting a second job, probably in Holland V.
Cuz I calculated, and I realised that there isn't enough time for me to come up with my living expenses and school fees for the whole poly year if I where to stay with just one job.
And besides, Holland V is nearer to NP, and so transportation's going to be convenient.
Which means I may quit TPS once school reopens.
Hmm..
Dunno, see how?
Or maybe transfer to Wheelock, more convenient.
And yea, I decided not to try for the hotel job eh :)

I'm starting to prepare for V Day alr.
lot's of sincerity involved ok! :)
I'm just afraid that there isn't enough time.
Still, I'm glad that there's many whom i can give to :)
I just hope Keiko attends the alumni BBQ though.
If not can't pass her the present eh:(

There's so many things that I want to blog, but there's just too much:)
It's weird that the weather's hot, yet I'm down with a flu.
I'm wondering if I've caught the flu bug from this guy at the station
WALAO HE DIDN'T COVER HIS NOSE BEFORE HE SNEEZED!
and it's those with mist+toxic gas coming out.
And now I've got the "flu feeling.
Imagine if that wasn't me, but some young infant.
tsk tsk tsk, how inconsiderate.

I hope I can wind my life to 2 months in advance, get my 2 month's pay and start my school:))))
but yea, fat hope.
Haha..
No matter how tired I am, I'm still glad to have work to occupy my time though:)

2009-02-03T09:45:00.001-08:00

School had just reopened for the JC peeps:)
Hah, bet it had been great yea!
Unlike me, still stuck here having my holiday :/
I have like two more months to go before my school starts!!!
argh...
I'm so so so bored.
I want school!!!!
SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL
argh, I think I've never been so desperate for school to reopen ever once in my life.
I miss wearing school uniform, waking up at wee hours every morning, taking train to school half-awake, meeting my friends there, paying attention to lessons, learning things, taking down notes, chatting with the people I know, eating school food, spending half of my life at school, eating dinner with friends.

Then I looked at the JC people's blog.
I feel like so distant and different from them DD:
Look at me now, I'm still working.
Yes I'm still wearing uniform but instead of a blouse and skirt,
I'm wearing yellow polo tee, black pants/jeans everyday.
I'm still slogging hard for the living expenses once i start my poly life.
I'm not gaining any academic knowledge at all.
I'm like already part of the society, the working people.
etc etc...

2 more months, 2 whole months to go!
Tell me, how can those non-working people stand it?!
Imagine myself having no job=no moolah to spend like 5 months of holiday.
I will definitely waste my life away, surf the net, play maple, enage myself in the virtual world.
like 5 months can do so many things ok!
If a woman is pregnant for 5 months, her tummy will be so damn obvious.
okok lousy example but yea..
Just imagine being out of SG for only 1 month.
Return home confirm need to adapt de right?

My point is,
I really want the time to pass faster :/
I'm like doing the same thing every single day, I want something different.
At least in school, we learn different things, no?
aih aih...

At least for now, I shall just hope for Feb to pass faster.
By then, sweet's exams will be over.
And hopefully I can get him to tutor me a bit of BFS.
yup I know he will eh:)

As for now, I feel like finding for another job so that time can pass even faster eh :/

So late alr, shall sleep :)
Nitez and jia you JC people!
If you start to complain about school life, do imagine yourself not schooling for 5 months and appreciate what you have yea:)

2009-02-01T08:07:00.000-08:00

I'm fickle-minded.
Cuz I've decided to appeal instead.
Still, I'm only trying for SA, not other JCs.
In the past, the resaon why I wanted to get into a JC was just for SA.
So now I think I've made up my mind, hah:)
I think I'm really ti-ki.
Making a trip down to SA tmr, hope to see many familar faces! :)

I'm so tired after working so many full shifts,
let alone having enough time to think of my furture properly.
It's like everyone quit job alr, me leh?
But I don't want to depend on my parents anymore, i want to earn my own pocket money..
aih aih..
If my appeal fails, i would probably try applying for a bursary in poly so that I can fork out my own school fees eh:)
Not that my family's having financial problem, but..
dunno how to describe?

Work these few days been quite ok despite the fatigue.
It's tiring, but I've gained so many knowledge these whole week, come to think of it.
Maybe cuz now that Stacey and Jackson are both gone, we got to help Firdaus more?
Being a cashier can be quite stressful, and settling the accounts is really mind-draining
But at least I'm upgrading myself everyday, no?
Still, can't help but to feel lousy eh :(

tired, replying to tags next time.
Finally an off day for me tmr?
Hope to bake :)

2009-01-29T15:51:00.000-08:00

I GOT INTO NP'S BANKING AND FINANCE.
yea, for those who're interested :)

Woots, so I didn't get into SA unlike many had expected.
I got a 9, and only chose their science stream.
Their COP raised to 8 this year!
and no, I'm not going to appeal cuz got to join their certain CCAs, etc.
and I don't want to use GG then be one of their student leaders or something :)

and I do prefer poly life just that admission to uni serves as a problem.
hmm..
I was so anxious ytd, i switched my silent mode off so that I could wake up to today's message.
received it at 6.30 am:)
I was happy, but I'm quite afraid that I won't be able to get into a U.
So I though about it myself and I think I should aim to be the best?
I dunno eh, I don't think it's something impossible, but it's either I want or not.

In JC, it's very difficult to be the best cuz your schedule is really very very packed yet you've got to make extra effort to polish up, perfect your scores despite having very limited time for yourself.

In poly, the schedule is more spaced out, spreading out to 3 years, so with enough effort and discipline, you can actually brush up during the free time (even though I think BFS's competition is gonna be really high)

The thing is,
wil my self-discipline be there?

I know I can do it.
Everybody can do it.
the x-factor lies in how badly we want it.
The more we want it, the more we'll push ourselves :)

Like last time when I got 40+ for my L1R5 people thought I'm going to screw my O Level up.
Even myself thought so!
In the end I still managed to survive rite..
So yea I think it's really the mindset that matters :)

I dunno if people agree with me or not,
but I'm not someone who just know how to play and don't think one k!

I'm going to work real hard when school reopens, hah:
I had done it before, and I believe I can do it again:)

As for now, I really can't imagine working for 2 more months eh.
Not that I dislike working, just that the week before I was not yet prepared for school to reopen.
Then this week, people were saying that JC1 will start next week.
So I was quite kan-jiong, tried to prepare myself for the school mood.
Now, JC!
So I got to adapt again, hah.
I think I won't pia so much for work now if I'm tired, though currently I still can manage my time.
I think I've earned enough already? By third pay of course.
I don't spend all of my salary, I think for my second pay I've spent less than half of it:)
hahaha.. also because of sweet's help la:))
I splurged a lot a lot when I just got my first pay which was only $160++?
So I spent lots of my savings away too, like at least $500.
Now that I've earned and saved my savings back, I think can relax for a while.
So maybe I've done the right thing by submitting very few schedules next week eh :)
(initially, that was for in case if i were to go jc)

For the remaining two months I really dunno what to do leh.
Work plus catch up with friends, family, plus I maybe want to sign up courses:)
See how first, maybe Firdaus will give me less schedules?
hmm..
on a second thought, I also want to earn as much as I can for now.
Cuz when school reopens I've got to tone down a lot already, or quit if I can't cope:)
see how ba, hah :)

And random, but I miss my ponytail :(
*pout like like a bimbo*

jasmine: I don't have your link girl :(
qiyi:D: then must update me about guides meetings k:) hah
sj: lol i didn't know you read my blog!
shuling: heh, cya! :)
Simin: hees, welcome!

2009-01-27T16:55:00.000-08:00

Work yesterday was definitely different.
It was really sudden, the management and everything.
and, confirm not a pleasant CNY surprise.
Firdaus is not bad but well, I still can't help to feel a bit........
Cuz the thing which kept me there was actually the people.
I dunno eh, maybe I was being really too sentimental.
Maybe sometimes we really need to move on, just for ourselves.
I realised that I always lived for others just because of my sentiments.
hmm..
I dunno..
There's a lot of feelings which I can't express out, and I don't want to express out here either.
I need a listening ear.
I enjoy working for Firdaus, but still I kind of miss Wendy, Stacey and even Jackson.
If I were to go JC, i would still have to quit anyway.
If not, should I just remain there for the few months or try that hotel job?
I dunno eh.
Let Fri decide the fate.

Perhaps sometimes I've really neglected what I, JUST MYSELF really want.
yea I'm always realising things, but it's so difficult for me to change yea.
Suddenly I'm agreeing to what Chiang says in my report book, that I "Demonstarates Adaptability" just "Adequately".

On a brighter note, I will be meeting yilin later.
Like so long didn't meet her alr.
Going to TPS to meet Rui Jun and get my apron.
Visiting gran's house to bai nian w/o family since I'm working full on Sun.
Dinner with sweet.

Yup, these will cheer me up :)

Don't feel like replying to tags for now, maybe next time?

2009-01-25T18:11:00.000-08:00

whoo i'm now blogging in malaysia:)
happy happy cny people!
yea i'm not (yet) in my cny clothes since i'm currently still queueing up for the toilet
i guess this is what you get in a big family?
hah :)

slept at 3 plus yesterday to countdown
plus the ritual stuff that the older generation would prepare and the younger ones got to help.
like folding lots of fake ingots (is that what you call that?) with the incense papers, baking cakes, cooking?
and i'm usually the one folding them with the cousins, until all the huge stacks of incense papers are used up
yea my father has got a very very traditional family
well not that i mind since there's the atmosphere :)
haha..

tmr working full shift once i reach SG eh.
wed will be my off day, plan to go get my next course of medicine, then meet yilin for lunch, then go maternal ah ma's house, meet sweet for dinner:)
so many things to do, so little time eh.
thurs working half day at least, fri sat sun chiong work alr :)
and posting result's out on fri!!
i can't wait:)

and i just realised that since cny is here,
my birthday's coming! :D
woots feb is indeed a good good month :)
i suddenly feel so old.
cuz it's like, yilin just reached 16
and i'm hitting 17!
like very old..
old:(
but it's ok:)

2009-01-23T08:38:00.000-08:00

This is my last post before I go Malaysia.
Work's alright, alright.
Just that blah blah, i shall keep my rants to myself.
(yea, wait till i get a livejournal acct, i can keep such stuff private then)
sigh...

and i don't like flooblebox cuz it doesn't provide the full i.p address
who's anonymous? reveal yourself!!!
k i'm mad.
but seriously, not that i'll eat you up right.
(it's executable by law anyway)
tsk, i just don't like to be kept in suspense eh :(

k i'm tired and i'm doing opening tmr
happy CNY in advance people :))
may you get lots of angbaos :D
and maybe oranges? hmm..

shall reply to tags once i'm back
cheers:)

2009-01-21T20:38:00.000-08:00

clkl: haha:)

anonymous: doesn't mean work hard=for money eh, money's the bonus, but work gives me a sense of satisfaction, but my mindset's changing since the passion isn't really there alr. plus, I was working and couldn't go back to school. and, helping isn't equal to helping, if you get what I mean. The girls really need to learn to help themselves and be independent, especially since we taught them the stuff before we handed over. during our time, we also struggled through the period and learnt many things after the seniors handed over to us. I trust that if they really do need help, they'll ask us back :) If it happens, I'll definitely arrange my time to help them.
and are you shang jun? cuz you sounds like him :)
and no worries i'm not offended by your tag so don't have to leave as anonymous
thanks for your concern anyway, i will take an urgent leave if i happen to fall sick :)

2009-01-21T19:35:00.000-08:00

I kind of updated my links just now :)
Hahaha..
Gary& YiLin you're at the top eh, happy or not?!?!

I just want to express that it's now very difficult to catch up with everybody now that we've graduated, especially with my very packed schedule.
It's very rare for me to be like now, wasting my life away (more of like some time for myself)
probably cuz i've less schedule this week ( no full shifts!)

Back to the point, I would rather have a very best friend rather than many many good friends.
Right now, I wouldn't say I have many, but adequate number of good good friends:)
The guides, Keiko and Jasmine :)
and of course the class, Van, Emelia, Yuen Yi and Lynn! :)

And to Van Emelia Yuen Yi and Lynn:
i'm a very very lazy person who always do not take the initiative to organise outings, but that doesn't mean that you're no longer part of my life k! It's just that y'all very scattered (Good thing Van's with Em), I dunno to ask who D: ok maybe they're just excuses for my laziness, but I'll meet up with you people asap k! I'll never forget you people who were the ones there for me in class and doesn't mean that you're no longer my friends after the grauduation:)

And for YiLin, I feel really glad to have her as my bestie.
It's very funny cuz among the rest she has the bad points which i am supposed to unable to tolerate.
Like like! littering, miss-calling me, lousy temper!
It's really amazing how I can stand her when if it's others i'll definitely dislike them, let alone be their friends.
But I must also say that she really changed for the better since last time, probably cuz of Aven and me! :D (lalala, i'm thick-skinned)
The girl's definitely the first among my friends whom I'll head to whenever I need help or someone to complain (which i seldom have)
and it's surprising me that we can at least be on phone at least 3 times per week despite our clashy schdeules.
Well seriously I can't really express my feelings through words but neither can I say this out in real life.
Girl I hope how understand how I treasure our friendship eh.
(and my hair is standing every minute when I'm typing this.. SO MUSHY!)

And as for Gary, you're the new-found somebody in my life.
seriously, I wonder how you can stand all my nonsense.. ahaha:)
the reason why I can trust you so much is cuz you're so truthful to me! :D
like you'll even tell me when you've found your eye candy *smacks head*
and even.. (shh... that's our secret:) )
Because you're so honest with me, I can't even get myself to lie to you even if I want k!:)
yea, and it seems so long even though it's only a month plus.
So far no first quarrel yet eh, and that's probably cuz of the mutual trust I guess :)
love you silly boy! :)

dunno why I'm so mushy all of a sudden, but I'm glad have the important ones in my my life:)
seriously, I'm the kind who would rather die than to say all these out.. hah:)

k jackson just called me to go down and start my shift earlier, so I guess i got to go :)
cheers!

2009-01-21T05:08:00.000-08:00

I used to love working, but everything seems so sian now.
The people are leaving, and it's like within 2 months I see my name moving up the list.
And now even wendy's gone.
Management's going to change drastically, and I guess more politics will come in sooner or later?
The only things which are keeping me there are the people.
Then again, how many will remain there?
So yesterday a woman approached me and asked if I would like to be a waitress at Hotel Grand Copthrone. The other time when someone had done the same, I immediately rejected. This time round, I felt like a betrayer when I accepted her namecard? I dunno..
How???
Hotel= higher pay, more experience, eye-opener
Hotel= more politics, only serving, probably lesser schedule, ~~tps people~~
Then again, what's the point of staying when everyone will be gone eventually?
dunno eh, don't think i will work if i go jc anyway.. hmm...

didn't get to donate my blood yesterday.
my blood pressure was only 94 which the examiner said was relatively low:(
boo..
maybe next time try again when "best friend" is gone.

i feel like going back to CTSS on CNY celebration this friday before work
Those who want to go can jio me along eh:)
Cuz apparently, YiLin's working, Jas will be in school, Keiko may not be interested.
Maybe asking Van/Lynn/Yuen Yi later, hah:)
Cuz I really want to talk to mr et, luan lao shi, mrs yong
~~ms seah~~ cuz I think she didn't really help much ( o lvl period left sch at 3 plus everyday. what is this man.)
'am just afraid that everything's going to be so rush since I'll be doing opening at 10.

and did I mention?
I'll be working for 41.5 hours next week.
damn hardcore, ahaha...
more moolah but i think i'll get k/o eh...
like out of 5 working days 4 are full shifts, woots..
So I'm set on buying the pair of heels from charles and keith
(It's a very nice pair at only $12.90, cheaper than mondo!!!)
quick quick somebody, call me a cheapo now..

But aye, I save what I earn k!:)
I really hope I can be financially independent, which I'm currently.
Definitely, it's way easier if I were to go poly, hmm..
yea, 30 Jan, I can't wait:) (poly/jc/poly/jc/poly/jc?)

oh, and I feel like starting A Math from scratch, then retake as private candidate.
The only regret I have for my results is that I dropped A Math so "ABSENT" appeared there.
I know I wouldn't have done as well if I didn't drop A Math but well..
it's human's nature to be greedy, and sometimes,
little bit of greed can strive us to work harder, no? :)

:)

it's supposed to capture both of us on my phone, but end up only me.
still look nice eh:)
and my fingers look long here! :))

i think to need to jog to get rid of my thunder thighs D:

clkl: whoo carene i knew it was u!!! nah i'm not a bimbo cuz my brainS are here! *points to both sides of head* call me a bimbo and i shall kill you and gary's child.. oh hoho *flips hair, struts off*

Yilin: eh you're not fat, just very fair so don't look as toned as you seems la.. haha.. and i love ba kwa and pineapple tarts! damn fattening but nice. expect myself to gain 1.5 kg after cny *shudders*

Ruby: tank keeww ferr taggingx, lurbs lurbs euu worzz... AHA :D

2009-01-18T19:29:00.000-08:00

Boo the Blood Bank's closed today:(
Heng I had checked the opening hours on the net.
probably shall head there tmr before helping the girls out :)

I'm so bored at home, I can only bake and bake.
heh
not that I'm complaining? :)

and I think my parents just found out about sweet.
It's not that they will disapprove, but..
hmm never mind
I don't think I can explain too.

and somebody please stop me from snacking on Mum's pineapple tarts
not forgetting the kuih bangkit that I've baked. rah..
yesss I'm growing FAT FAT FAT. D:
I think I'm really a glutton.
It's like, I can even snack on the parmesean cheese powder back at work.
Now you know how I deserve to be fat.
But I DON'T WANT.
Bleh.

Class Chalet. Lynn and Van's eye.

Yuen Yi, Qin Xin and Van's other eye
I think I look so act chio. tsk tsk.

Me. with i-dunno-who's fan

and that's my mother's mother's daughter's son
a.k.a my cousin. :)
damn cute eh he, hiding in a corner.
dumb dumb kid, likes to choose a dead end whenever i chases him, heh :)

and that's my ~~auntie's~~ kid! :)

2009-01-17T22:10:00.000-08:00

Yup so I've submitted my JAE form on Thursday night.
Lol and I think everybody's bloghopping nowadays?
Hahaha.. It's like before the results the counter displayed 700++
Now it's like 928? woots.
I thought my blog was boring without the pictures:/
It's for myself to read anyway, so I seldom spend much effort eh.
Anyway, I'm really lazy to list out my choice so I just scanned in the whole chunk.

sorry, i know it's really blur
maybe i should switch to livejournal/xanga?:/

Anyway, i don't think I will get in AJ and i was actually more interested in SA than AJ
then again, I love SA as much as NP.
If I were to put SA as my first choice, i most likely get in?
Then I will feel quite sad that I didn't choose BFS instead.
If I were to put BFS instead, i will feel sad that I didn't choose SA instead.
so I kinda threw my first choice away and see where fate will lead me to.
Cuz it's like,
I don't think I can get into AJ? (and yea mugger school)
Cuz their COP for science is 8
Then I met SA's COP for science, but I didn't put it as first choice so they may not want me.
Then BFS? I dunno, they may not want me too since it wasn't my first choice.
okok I know it sounds really confusing but well..
Actually results doesn't matter so long as I get into any of my first 5 choices yea:)

And yup, I didn't choose any Art stream cuz I was afraid that it's not easy to do well in Humans subjects.
And ~~long long essays~~!
So I think it increases the competition too since many would want the Science stream.
Looking forward to 30 Jan I guess:)
I want to know where I would end up in.

So I was saying about changing blog.
I think my url's quite emo?
which is very not for me now.
i dunno.
i cheered up so much alr, yet i'm still stuck at this blog here.
hahaha:)
then again, it took me a while to draw the rose eh *points upwards*
aha, people must be so stunned now. (Si Pei draw?)
whooo.. I'm very artistic one ok!!!
siao siao..
haha:D
but the skin looks so emo too, yet the content is ":D :D :D"
see how, see how..

Gonna work later, and tmr's my off day! :)
Jackson's been asking me to work full time but I dunno eh.
Like now I'm already having very very limited time for myself already..
i think don't want la.
and I can't help but to sense something fishy too..
hmm..
*zips mouth*

Most likely going to the blood bank to donate blood tmr.
Yay Dad's nice to help me sign the form :D
then find sweet after that I guess:)
Tuesday helping guides out for CCA open house before work.
The girls are tying the same swing structure that we did last year I guess:)

Before yesterday, I was really afraid that we will not last if I were to go jc.
Somehow I think I'm so selfish, putting SA even when I know he wants me to be in NP.
Then again, if our bond is really strong, nothing will break us apart rite?:)
Still, I think I'm really really selfish..
He's done so much for me, why can't I just choose NP for him, for the relationship?
why why why..
ya I'm a bad girlfriend..

ws: heh, thanks! :)
GARY: sorry eh:(

2009-01-13T17:45:00.000-08:00

Imagine somebody who didn't push you at all during your O Level period, no much sign of care and concern except for quarreling with you almost everyday, resulting in you having no choice but to stay out to study till midnight so that you can get away from the hurt and concentrate on your revisions (can't the person spare a thought?), get really happy about your results so that he/she can show it off to her friends and relatives, starts forcing you to make a decision which he/she wants and can continue to boast.

"Pissed" is too mediocre to express your mood eh?
ya, that's how i'm feeling exactly.

Don't do well cannot, Do well also cannot.

and shit i'm still in a bad dilemma.
HOW?
I think my hair is starting to turn white man.

I think if this continues
People will see me in Bugis on Fri 12 noon, going to Kuan Im Temple asking the deity asking for her opinion with the red crescent-shaped thingy which come in pair, then draw lots before heading down to the Catheral of the Good Shephard asking God 'bout where I should go.

nah i'm not superstitious.

But eh maybe I should do that.
'Cos apparently,
everyone's telling me different things which gives me second thoughts everytime!!! D:
I'm super duper stressed out right now.
2 MORE DAYS ONLY!

okok maybe you would say,
"since you get stressed so easily then go poly lah, can manage your time yourself."
ok maybe..
BUT BUT!
i duunnnoooo...

And my parents aren't helping cuz they just force me to choose JC w/o giving me proper reasons why I should do that.

If anybody were to make me feel up the form now,
i think i will put SA science as the first choice (since i may not perhaps even 90% get in)
then NP BFS as second.
then SP's Biomedical Science as third?
yea maybe, but i think people who see this can already sense my doubts rite :/

aiyayaya..
shall go prepare for work now, update again next time!

lingling: hahaha.. i'm much better now, thanks dear! :)
YILIN: lol you're slacking at work again!

2009-01-12T19:12:00.000-08:00

And so all the tension was over yesterday.
What I pictured really came true seriously.
Mr Tan told me to go to the office to pay my library fines then get my results from there.
So I went to the office and they say I got to go to the library? Paid my fines at the library(heng I withdraw enough moolah), loka told me to go office get my results.Ok I went there, guess what?
MY RESULT SLIP ISN'T WITH THEM.
i seriously freaked out ok.
I thought I would explode, and chiong-ed up the hall to find Mr Chiang and Tan.

yup, it turned out to be with them, like damn relieved
i was so tensed up, Chiang showed me my first three grades before I could sign.
I think the word "overjoyed" isn't enough to describe my mood seriously.
Okok, maybe I expected too little from myself?
Afterall, I started out with L1R5 of 47
And my prelim's R5 was 29 if I have remembered clearly.
So how much can one expect from herself in this way?

Anyway, I was really surprised about my Humans
I didn't really spend enough effort for my SEQ
(remember me saying about memorising very few topics at the last min?)
so yea, either i was heng heng or my geo pulled me up:)
but aye, I did find Miss Ng occasionally after school k!
And I still remembered how I've troubled her and went her house for extra guidance sometimes.
I didn't really like her last time, and to think that I will end up hugging her:)

But well, neither did I expect no distinctions for my both sciences.
It's ok, I'm already very very contented with my results:)
sounds cheesy, but I'm really fortunate to have Chiang as my classparent
If not for him I think I will be like damn screwed.

And if you happen to be reading this, thanks for telling me that I was stupid.
Cuz I've finally found someone with opinion so much more mediocre.

Then again, I don't like the feeling when my friends didn't do as well.
Maybe I was too selfish, but I really dunno how to comfort them.
It's like, you're damn happy, but you see your friends like that you feel really guilty.
Like, you feel guilty to be happy.
Yes I can see those who've worked hard, but didn't do well
It's like really sad for those who deserved the results but didn't get it.
Then again, there's few who didn't put in enough effort too but everyone's crying sometimes you really dunno what to say.
Like some you can say "you've tried your best"
But some you can't cuz it's not quite true..
I think yilin and me share the same sentiments ba.

And I think we're rotally in the same boat somehow.
Yilin wanted to get into NJ I've wanted to get into SA
So when people ask and I tell them about my target they had laughed or told me to be more realistic.
Ok now we've done it. The thing is,
Should we put ourseleves up for the challenge?
What if we can't cope, blah.
Like for YiLin, NJ should be really stressful cuz the seniors who made it there went MIA afterwards
And I've always wanting to be fanancially independent and it'll be very difficult if I'm going SA
cuz I will probably quit TPS by end of this month then.
How????
It's supposed to be a good thing but it seems to stress me out eh.
Sian-ed

Again for those who didn't do well,
what matters most for now isn't the results anymore.
What's more important is to get into a course/JC that you want.
And excel over there.
After which, O Level Cert will only become a blank paper just like our PSLE cert isn't it?
I think we should think about our future carefully, and not mourn/elated over results anymore.

Shall go visit ah ma later, blog again next time yea:)

2009-01-11T18:57:00.000-08:00

RAH I'M DAMN ANGRY WITH MYSELF

I'm supposed to wake up at 11am today
so that I will not be so freaked out for the whole morning about the results later, yet still can meet yilin at 1215.
the thing was, i auto-woke-up again at 0845 D:
so for the past 2 hr++ i was scaring the life out of myself.

and i dunno what was wrong with me at work yesterday.
I keep making mistakes ahhh..
So Stacey had to cover up everything for me?
Which makes me feel so guilty and mad.
argh, I don't think I want to be runner again.
only knows how to cause trouble for others, tsk.

And i'm teething!
my second set of molars are out, quite irritating.
I kept biting my thumb back at home cuz my gum's so itchy.

I ate junk food for breakfast.
2 Muji marshmallows, 1 banana.
ok maybe not that junky though.

a random post I would say.

note to self: withdraw lots of money later in case i got to pay school library fines.

clkl: hmm.. you are??
jixiang: aiya, just relink la.. haha:) sorry i was lazy to ask people so it's up to you actually..
clkl: merry christmas:)
SHIYING: heh, but my results still like shit:( what matters most will come in later at 1400! D:
EMELIA: heh, you so cute!:D hahaha..
Yilin: yup dear, but i'm very glad that you understand my feelings yea:)
JOANNA: yup, ok, i will soon:))
feng: yup, happy new year:))
clkl: hi:)
SHIYING: heh, really eh.. he very weird and is so full of himself, i don't like :/

2009-01-10T22:04:00.000-08:00

MONDAY'S THE DAY
yup, i remember hearing everyone saying this before our Chem P2
now, everything's already fixed and all we can do is to just wait.

I want Mon to come.
I don't want Monday to come.
I want Mon to come.
I don't want Monday to come.
rah..
scared, scared..

Couldn't sleep well last night cuz was thinking about all the negative stuff.
I pictured myself losing many library books without knowing. evil/sissy/grumpy/calculative/eccentric mr loka make me pay $$ for the books before I can get my result slip, then i no cash. so everybody left home happily leaving me in general office when by then i should be getting my results which would turn out to be so bad that no poly wants to accept me.
Then I started raking my brains hard see which questions were the ones I was most unsure of the answer but I couldn't really recall/spot so I started deducting marks from almost every question which I remembered.
So I ended up dozing off at 2am plus?

WALAO CHEW SI PEI YOU GO DIE LA CAN YOU NOT BE SO PESSIMISTIC OR NOTZZZZZ

okok it's gonna be over by tmr.
I want to take a short short nap before my work.
Surfed the net to obtain contacts for suppliers, hope to start my blogshop soon.
By then maybe I will consider quitting TPS?
I dunno, see how it goes..
very very tired, i want sleep!

~~JIA YOU~~ GOOD LUCK PEOPLE

A Late Greeting

2009-01-05T01:38:00.000-08:00

Happy very belated new year people!! I guess this is like 5 days late, but..

Resolutions for 2009:
# have better time management
# eat lesser junk food and maintain my weight! (and yes, less choc)
# be a better daughter, student, friend, girlfriend, sister, citizen, blah blah. In short, to a better person :)
# balance everything well
# stop my procrastinations!
# be more hardworking and excel in JC/poly
# keep in touch with the people (sec sch, and perhaps TPS?)
# take effort to contribute back to CTSS? i dunno.
# Tone up my stomach! abs abs..

and a recap of what happened in 2008:

Approached sec 4 life, afraid of what's in for me.
ASPIRE camp. Motivational talks, etiquettes, salsa! :D
O Level Chinese result. Disappointment.
Got selected for Thinking Day Colour Party. SenSe of pride after many hectic Wednesdays and Saturdays at the HQ
First love. Months of bitter followed after a momentary taste of dessert.
Speech Day 2008. Trained hard and marched the last parade probably of my life
Felt cheated.
Woken up and realised how screwed my studies was. Counseling sessions by Mr Chiang.
Afternoon FOCUS. Struggled hard to catch up with others when school started ending at evening.
Dropped A Math. Finally able to see improvements.
Night FOCUS. Bonded with the class.
Started sleeping less, with occasional Red Bulls. Felt so lonely when studying alone is the ultimate.
O Level and uncertain about the future.
Graduation and prom. Inexpressible gratitude towards the school for who I am today.
Found my job and nicey nicey friends:)
Found my love again. A much happier one.
Had the best new year of my life.

and i remember how 4A1 vowed not to be the last Express class, how Chiang would psycho us to study everyday, how he had taken the effort to come up with more and more study plans for us, how i would take a nap during recess for the lack of sleep the night before, how some of us would also sleep on the row of chairs to replenish our energy, how we got so sick of having our dinners at koufu and started eating at commonwealth market and even holland v, how some of the class would still like to prank the teachers and play water bomb despite the stress, how Mr Tan was so angry with us for days for being late for his afternoon FOCUS because of our basketball game, how thankful we were for having Chiang as our classparent, and even how Mdm luan would give us a break during her hmt lessons when the class complained about the stress and fatigue.

Basically, my 2008 revolved around studies and O Level, perhaps, too, a small awakening about life and myself.
It was not at all an easy year for me, perhaps until the end of O Level and I bet that's what many would agree too.
Catching up wasn't easy, and neither was maintaining, either.
Though the economy have been going downhill, I really hope 2009 will be a better year for everybody. Nothing can amount to the importance of world peace. :)
No life lost=No relief needed=No donations=No corruptions, etc etc.
And of course, I would get back the mood toi study once school reopens for me.

Talking about school, it feels kinda weird not going to one when everybody is in their school uniforms.
It feels weird, but i really miss studying.
Maybe I should grab the chance to brush up my A Math?
hmm.. Since it's needed in the poly anyway.
And yes, I've decided going to a poly if I can't make it to at least SAJC/CJC:)

Anyway, went back to CTSS today to settle bro's admin matters.
yea, he got in to 1A1:)
and he said he want to join NCC!
hahaha.. I can't imagine him in that green uniform.
but well.
UG is good:)
sounds mediocre, but it's ctss guides which groomed me to the way I am what.
and i quote what people like to say,
"tsk, the school is always biased towards UG people"
i think many are going to be mad after this post :P
but then to be fair,
Our school's UG standard's really dropping.
I wonder how long can they keep up with the sustained achievement thingy.
it's ben 10 years, perhaps no more after that?
hmm.. sounds sadistic, but,
we still need the coporal punishments back:)

so i settled his stuff and saw jin yan and she told me she's back for COH.
I was surprised?
Cuz I didn't know about it at all and I think the teachers were supposed to ask the previous leaders back or something.
But I didn't join them anyway since it was quite last minute.
I don't like it that the guiders are making all the decisions now cuz some of them were quite impractical.
I believe the current leaders were capable of deciding for the guides and that's why the previous batch of us decided to promote them what.
Now their ranks are just names, and they almost have no say at all, don't think it's fair to them?
And i shall emphasise again.
Not that the teachers are more capable than the girls.
Because the current sec 4s are the ones there throughout meetings,
they can have better management than the teachers who do not understand the rest of the guides at all.
The leaders have been through more camps, trainings etc and so their skills should be on par with, if not, better than the teachers.
with that, i end my speech. thank you.

so i heard that the guiders made me the footdrills mistress.
i thought that it sounds really impressive, until i thought about it and realised that perhaps there's some motives behind it?
ahaha, it's to tie me down and so that i can always come down and they can make me the YA :D
no thanks, i do not want this kind of commitment, hah.
i mean, I don't mind coming down occasionally to train the girls and visit guides
but i'm not willing to all all the sai-gangs and paperworks for the teachers to claim their credits.
neither do I want to be tied to the HQ, lol
and besides, haven't it be only the sec 5s getting the positions?
and I think I've already forgotten my commands..
i'm happy to go down and train the girls for footdrills
but i will never want to join the YA.
I love guides, but I want something new.
besides, the tasks of YA and guide are totally different.

anyway, i'm back home here after buying my bro's textbooks and uniforms.
doing opening tmr, shall rest early:)
i would probably put the taiwan pics up at photobucket instead:)
cheers.

2008-12-30T09:13:00.000-08:00

back from work.
am really busy nowadays and was really lazy to blog too.
soon, this blog will be dead! ahahaha
i've been reading too many sad blogs, kinda affected too.

hmmm...
i'm really happy now but i really need to balance everything out between work, friends, family, love.
rahhh
if only i have 48 hours per day.
come to think of it.
i havent really been resting after my Os.
Like after my Bio P1 i went to hunt for prom the next 5 days.
after prom i started working immediately.
There's nothing like a 1 week break or something for me to really waste my life away.
Which I think is good and bad?
i wouldn't snack like a pig at home and gain tons of weight.
i earn $$$$
i will occupy my time and not shop and waste $$$?
then again i think i've neglected my friends a lot.
hmmm..
i dunno, a blog can never be private, don't want to blog too much here.
What i want to say is simply that i still love my friends too k.
Just that it takes time for me to balance everything out with the changes in my life.
I even see much lesser of my family now :/
I'm greedy, i want time for everything.

I keep having this "tsk" feeling of myself.
kind of irritated?
nvm, i want to sleep now, hmm..
Taiwan pics to be updated next time.
See?
Si Pei have always been a pure procrastinator.
sorry i think this post is really boring without any variety of colours nor fonts.
but no for that mood ya, hah.

2008-12-16T05:09:00.000-08:00

finally, i've gotten my lazy body to update.
yes yes, for yilin dear's sake to advertise her blogshop:)
cry yilin cry. you're supposed to be reeeaaalllyy touched.
heh.

http://lovedistrict.livejournal.com/

seriously, i think the stuff there are quite cheap.
you don't get to see dry-fit fbt selling at $8.50-$9.50, do you?
even if you go queensway, people are already selling the straight-cut ones at $10 :/
and of course not to mention about 15 bucks NF skinnies and $13 NF shorts! :D
in normal blogshops, finding skinnies selling at 18 bucks each should be considered dirt cheap already:)
and i havent even started my blogshop, rahhhh
seriously chew si pei you should wake up and stop being a procrastinator.
tsk tsk.

anyway, i've received letters to collect my good progress and eagles award! :D
oh man i was like damn damn high..
eagles expected, but not good progress eh.
i got in sec 2 too which means my results have always been fluctuating?
dumb ass, never been constant before.
hahaha.. ok it's supposed to be a happy thing so i shall not scold myself.

taiwan was not bad:))
the people there are really warm, nice and friendly and they don't shoot you those looks if you decide not to buy their stuff.
and you really have to hand it over to them that despite having limited dustbins, their roads are even cleaner than SG.
in fact, everyone knows that thew cleanliness will never be possible without the janitors.
it's like we're really spoilt in SG, and over there you got to hold your rubbish till you spot a bin yet you can't bear to dirty their streets.
which let me realise that action by one person can really affect many others.
because over there people receive good moral edu, everyone was taught no only to recycle, but to keep the place clean.
so obviously if one person litters, he/she will surely be branded a weirdo isn't it?
hah:)
and their dustbins always come with recycle bins, people got to purchase a plastic bag at 10 yuan, etc:)
something like ikea (and i miss ikea meals!)

the thing is that, their traffic's really different from SG.
and their meals are seriously oily, etc.
like their veggies are stir-fried with oil, and you can see that their meats glisten under the light due to the thick thick oil..
their air is cold and dry due to the winter season, as low as 10 degree celsius.
the sun sets at 5pm and rises at 4am :O
my lips really cracked despite the lip balm/gloss :/
if you've seen the beggers in SG, they aren't actually the worst in the world cuz we've got a nice government who cares for their welfare.
in taiwan, beggars in that kind of weather, crippled w/o any aid, can be seen crwaling on the street begging for money.
it makes people feel kind of sad cuz it seems like there's nth one can do.
like you can give him 200 yuan for 2/3 meals but his life will return back to the same, isn't it?
ok enough of this sad thing.

the scenaries there were really breath-taking.
not something you'll get to see from the top of bukit timah hill.
heh.
and their street's snacks damn nice, their shihlin's xxl chicken cutlet's cheaper than the one in SG and almost twice the size.
my dad had their oyster ommelette while i was sick and he said it was tons nicer than the best in SG?
scary uh..
i love their bbq mochi and tempura shitake! :D
and if you think that people they are damn unhealthy due to those oily stuff,
no eh.
only in the fast food restaurants do people sell soft drinks
but on the streets it's only the fruit juice stalls everywhere.
it's as if you drink the poison and you get the antidote everytime, hah! :)
and taipei's like a shopping pardise, only much cheaper than SG!
like their xi1 men2 ding1 is like our orchard road, but their stuff are priced about the same as those in SG heartlands
you can actually get a very nice pair of shoes or a good bag at SGD 20 or so:)

i shall go shop again in taipei once i strike rich :)))
will post the pics next time:D

and for now, i'm a really happy girl:)
it feels like i've got everything alr..
i want to spread this love and happiness to others, hah.
i want to adopt a child:) if i have the ability of course.
if i go poly and continue working?
hah.
hopefully, hopefully..

shall post till here:)
long and boring post, but filled with blissfulness unable to be described :)

2008-11-28T17:36:00.000-08:00

and so jas yilin and me went kbox on wed
sing sang sung :)
i think this MV is really touching.

then again, i don't think this kind of thing exist anymore.
jas and me got a bit high when we saw that the creamer and sugar are the same as those from NYDC and TPS, lol!

met keiko, audrey, arcade:)
then pei keiko for interviews.

went down to Costa sands pasir ris for choon yan's birthday:)
heh.
fun fun, though there wasn't enough sleep
blah blah blah, went home next day, bathe, work:D
nth much to blog about really:)

where the colour party closed colours during NDP!:)
brings back memories lo.

jasmine i love your ass ^^

i think this top makes me look a bit fat fat eh:/

YiLin my dearest da bian:))

:)

2008-11-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

work's done, tmr's my off day:))
kinda tired, but a but realised that i forgot to plan the class chalet?
oh man sorry hannah, made you do everything:(
oh ya and to add on:
-tired, i want sleep!
-havent type out the timelines
-haven't contact class about chalet
-haven't buy/do the farewell gifts for the girls
-suddenly damn worried about my Os' :/ someone just kill me and die.

oh man, so screwed...
ok not really.
but a bit pek cek now.
si pei's such a paranoid worrier.

anyway, today's been such a long day.
woke up, baked.
went back to CTSS with yilin.
yea, our alma mater minus the warmth, memories, etc.
my point is, everything isn't the same anymore :(
lol, to think that i used to complain it being too small, old, etc.

accompanied bro to visit hua yi, jurong sec.
i think he quite poor thing cuz 230 is kinda not here nor there.
so it's either he successfully appeal to ctss or go those with 223/225.
and he regreted a lot.
but what to do?
i'm also quite disappointed with him too.
like if he didn't played so much he would have really scored better.
and he knows it well in his heart i think.

work's alright:)
i think the people there makes working there fun:)
hah, and i finally understand why jas loves NYDC so much:)
ok la enough smilies
i like it when the people there likes the stuff, service, etc
and to know that you've just made someone's day is really quite nice?
heh, my vocab's mediocre, i dunno how to explain
but it's somewhere around that kind of feeling.
that's why the more i think i should go learn the menu!
it's kinda bad if they pay the service charge if the waitress is not sure of the stuff what, i think.
hmm...
i dunno, but that's my principle:)

and somebody taught me
that if you want to anything, do it well. or else don't do?
but well.
he lies so much that this person i know is alreay his false self.
a fictional character who doesn't exist, yet taught me many stuff.
about life.
i know about those things and stuff said about me.
still, i think there's no need to explain to the people about the facts since i know my own conscience well.
what about you?
will u, after reading my entry (if you did), start explaining to others about your stand and perhaps lie again to cover the lies?
or will u flame me even more?
you know, the gravest mistake that you have made wasn't to lie,
but to lie differently to different people.
so yeah, u can't blame or accuse anybody when i know about what you've done.
if forgivement is the best punishment, i will forgive
but no, i can't get myself to forget.
and this can be refering to anybody.
again, it's up to your conscience.
i know the ones whose been the best to me all these while.
lol, i think i'm playing with people's minds? hah.

i meet different people i know everyday at work.
last week was mr chan look-alike, yesterday miss lee, today alicia:))
heh, thurs? eugene tan!! lolx
a bit regret not taking photo with him after grad, he didn't attend prom D:
shall settle the urgent matters now before sleeping
argh, AND i thought i've learnt not to procrastinate after my Os :/
pics up:)

oh and did i mention???
the sch didn't renovate the girl guides room at all!!!!
what is this man..
we contributed a lot ok!

classroom only longer?
not good, i think people at the back won't be able to see :/

canteen still 8 stalls:/

classroom block still classroom block!
podium and quadragle shifted.

that was the science block, now connected to a new indoor sports hall:)

and yilin lovess camwhoring with my phone.

a bit dumb that they have this road thing around the sch, but i suppose they shifted the carpark to the back of the sch?
i bet the UGs will confirm carry out their footdrills here!
so nice to march.

bit funny that the space's so big, the crest so small, hah

prom queen:D

and Yuen Yi the studies pro:) thanks for coaching me!
i whitened the teeth cuz ours look sso yellowish in contrast to the make-ups
but bit unnatural eh?

2008-11-22T18:35:00.000-08:00

work's been really fun:)
i love the people there and they're really really nice
the thing is,
i think my slots are very short.
like maybe one return journey will take me 1 hr 15 mins
but sometimes i work only 3++ hours:/
maybe cuz i'm a newbie ba, hah
hope it gets better:)
still will get a bit clumsy now though.

going picnic with family and work later.
heh, happening, i know :)
i realised that I will not be working during first whole week of dec due to farewell party, taiwan trip :(
haiz haiz. mooooolaahh $.$

shall update later, or maybe next time.

feng: heh, i hope they're god too :/ *crosses fingers*
jenny: ok, sure:)
HC: hwee hwee i will miss being your table partner!!! :(

2008-11-20T07:39:00.000-08:00

Pictures up!
There's still some, but shall upload more tmr, too tired:(
together with the captions yea:)
start with the zi lian ones!
my teeth damn yellow during prom,dunno why
maybe make-up?

GRADUATION 2008

funny cheong khi my yellow mole!

Van looked damn demure, very unlike her worzxzxz

SAY MOO!

and zilian :)

PROM NITE :D

my hair nicely done at Lynn's mama shop:D

4A1: Class of 2008! :)

mian bao cao ren! definitely one of the nicest in 4C1 :)
i look kinda shocked

YiLin dearest :))

and Keiko si da bian.

Hannah looking un-Hannahish :))

and we sat right in front of the stage!:D
i don't like it when the forgot many names.
not very nice way to act cute. :/

so how can you not zilian on such occasion?

i think somehow this one desn't look like me, hah.

Wen Yan not looking kam gong that day :))

Siew Fang's jealous and made me hug her, heh

^*^

presenting yong liang our insurance agent!
will never forget your *loud* gestures during quiet events

i think this one looks very class :)
k i know i'm very bhb

lynn sun!! the cutesy nice nice girl who do not grow up, neither physically nor mentally:)
and i love your methane song.
"show me the methane, la la la la la~"

Aniah and i still think her hair looks cute! :D

this angle can highlight the fat face eh :)

zilian and no doubt an act chio one.
tsk tsk

2008-11-19T18:18:00.000-08:00

so prom and grad are over:)
will definitely miss the sch.
yesterday was my first day at TPS, and i think it's ok
'cept the part that i spilled the drink on my way to the customer.
but heng i managed to catch the glass in time!!!
and yea, the manager was nice enough not to scold me:)

i love prom, i think it's the best excuse for girls to doll up :D
shall post the pics later, and so for the graduation:)
going to work, tada!
oh ya, and i'm posted to TBP's branch:)
PSLE results will be out later, crossing my fingers for bro.

2008-11-13T14:54:00.000-08:00

deleted my previous posts cuz i think we should be contented with our lives! :)
shall not grumble anymore.
and yea, o level's over! :D

was job-hunting at the same time too.
Thai Express, Ajisen, Sakae Sushi, Pepper Lunch, The Pasta House, BGC Group, Recruit Expres
So far The Pasta House accepted me :D
5.50/HR and 6/HR during weekends:)
good price for the F&B market ($5) now really!
and i think i like the people there, very friendly and nice!
not sure which branch i will be posted to though, either Wheelocks or TPP.

I think those who're job-hunting can consider Ajisen, $6/hr:)
the manager was saying that they're very packed, etc. so i thought wouldn't get it
but in the end he called me at night to turn up for training:D
turned down cuz i really like The Pasta Shop.
hoho, happy happy :)

Grad rehearsal, prom-shopping and medical check-up briefing for TPS later on:)
shall update again when i'm back.

2008-11-03T05:48:00.000-08:00

ok so for SS i actually studied about 2.5 themes
no not two themes and half theme.
.
..
...
teehee!
you can never guess.
full SED, D&D (iraq-kuwait, deterrence, diplomacy), Bonding SG minus Sri Lanka.
yaya, everything was damn damn risky.
All of these were according to your truly's predictions after thorough analysis from the TYS.
I thought I would just die if none comes out cuz i seriously have never taken any risk before.

Since i sat at the back of the class, i boldly yanked open the script.
GOVERNANCE.
barcode given. i hastily adhered mine to the booklet. flipped open. again.
Northern Ireland + SRI LANKA
i thought my heart just stopped. Virtually crossed my fingers helplessly.
opened again, this time after instructions.
IRAQ-KUWAIT.

woots! damn heng ok!
thank sipei thank sipei thank sipei:)))
..
.
ok i will never play such games with Cambridge again.

actually the paper was really really not bad despite the scare.
you know cos of my tortise hand which always write like the paper's got some feud with it
i have never touched the 4th question of my SBQ before.
so yea today i managed to finished the whole paper, minus one point from SBQ?
really happy with it:)
but then again it's too early for all the elation.
Save them for the results which, i hope will get me into a decent JC.
which i think it's too early to worry about either, save them for the week/night before results:)

and yup i decided to aim for a good JC instead of a good poly course.
Cuz if you look at the economy next year's recession.
I will graduate from poly in 2011, which by then economy is yet to be recovered
difficult to find jobs, etc.
so might as well study hard, aim to study few more years in uni, wait for economic bloom again.
hmm..
i know i sound like a smart alec here. hah:)
but my results cannot make it to SA/CJ/NY i think i will just head for np la.

i have so many things to say, so many pictures to post.
lots of things/people have been changing all these while.
even me, i'm changing.
i like how i''ve changed, and i don't like either.
so i guess the more i should learn to accept the changes of those around me :)

YUENYI'S long ago birthday celebration?:)

birthday boy

shortie lynn after constant overdose of magnesium steanate (spelling?)

limited photos, sorry D:

trip to vivo with yilin today
bought two tops from zara with my voucher?:)
and we love TANGS's fitting room!

RANDOM PICS

i'm a minah

i'm your mother

i'm... i dunno what

CELLULITES!!

everybody should have it i think
YiLin taught me how to squeeze them out :)
must cross your legs real tight. hah.

that's my bra-ther?:) i bet he'll kill me once he sees this.

and yes that's fatboy ~~and~~ with my toes :D

i miss fatboy, he's on his graduation trip to malacca:/
not fair, my time was bird park and they have grad nite, we have nth :(
nobody to fight/disiao with my pillow.

k tired alr, shall post again only after Os.
Hope to pia at least 2500 MCQs for the sciences eh? :)
jia you people!

2008-10-31T07:23:00.000-07:00

BACK :D
ok though the blog is really dead and even the tagboard isn't working.

but well well,
days can never get happier when papers are down down down :)
now left with SS which is the only major memo one on mon
then wed HMT and MCQs next week:))
weets, i'm feeling damn hyper now.
so many things to look forward to! :D

so far so good were the papers, though i'm bit worried for my el SIT.
but nvm since it's alr over:)
bio just now was ok, though i think i shouldn't have memo so much useless stuff
e math made some careless mistake D: rahhh
but well..
shall look forward to SS paper, then half-freed from the evil clutches if O level:D

i kind of want to study just 2 topics for SS, though it's damn risky.
feel like spreading my time from the 3rd topic to read through all topics to build my contextual knowledge, since there's chance that it'll help to reach the highest level in SBQ?
hmmm...
i dunno.
maybe i shall pretend that iraq kuwait will come out for SEQ (though i think either that or bonding will be in SBQ), then study bonding and SED?
AHA chew si pei you should stop slacking and lying to yourself.
think i will take these 3 plus read the rest for contextual :)

back to notes, shall blog again after SS :D

i kind of miss guiding, but things are no longer the same:(

2008-08-23T08:29:00.000-07:00

IT'S 58 DAYS TO O LEVEL!!

Not even 2 months :(
sian.

i shall not blog again before o level.
okok,
it's the last time i'm going to say this:/
i'm quite worried.
it's like
you'll never know where you're ending up in 6 months.
tsk tsk.
work hard, work hard.

SS paper on Mon after Chem P2
jia you people.
and now i shall continue mugging:)

2008-08-18T08:08:00.000-07:00

i shall be a kind soul and help shufeng spread this message:)

SEC 2/SEC3 ASPIRE 2009 CAMP FACILITATORS WANTED

it's a great chance. Heard that Sec 2 will be in St John Island
Sec 3 West Malaysia.
Yet to confirm though
but can sign up now, not much involvement needed until after Os whereby there'll be briefings:)
Also opened to alumni

:D

2008-08-15T18:39:00.000-07:00

The week had been so short yet so long
I was really hoping hard for Fridy to arrive (ET said this is the Queen'sEng)
I thought I've had screwed up my oral.
I believed I could have talked more, etc
and I forgot my entry proof and i/c when I first went in.
But then people told me I was inside for quite long?
Hah.
I was damn scared so I went to find ET
and he me that one or two scored high 20s, the rest 30s, and one even 39/40.
Ok maybe I didn't screw up, maybe not as well as usual.
hopefully, a 30? or 32?
:)

To think about it, I think our topic was considered relatively easy.
Elderly.

Thursday saw Moo and me going to Mac for dinner.
Mac. M-C-D-O-N-A-L-D-S
lol. fattening.
it's been reaalllyy long since I have my meals there
well, excluding breakfast which was March?
Lunch/ Dinner i think was since last Nov.
hah.
It's been so long that I really became suagu (sounds a bit like Auntie Sua in Chinese. ahaha. I think I'm damn bad.)
I was staring at my Filet-O-Fish, thinking where were the sesame seeds.

and no I'm longer on a diet. Now is like trying to save up:)
I do eat when I'm hungry cuz I don't want to get gastric.
(it becomes consistent once it happens)
But my dinners are light cuz I think my digestion isn't very well since i eat. go back school. sit&study.
See? Food can't get digested. Sour half-digested food often travels back to my mouth.
disgusting :/
and I don't think it's anorexia cuz I don't get the kind of thing during normal dinner on the weekends.
I think losing 12-14kg from starting of Sec 3 is actually more than enough alr.
I don't want to be underweight or anorexic
Now, I think I just watch my weight can alr :)
I think it helps when you feel you've eaten a lot, you jog on the spot for 15to30 mins non-stop while watching TV the next day.
For me I do that cuz my muscles loosened after guides so must tone back a little:)
I mean, can't expect me to march around the house for 3 hours, tie bamboo poles for 5 hours to make up for them right? Hahaha.

Anyway. O level EMath specimen paper 2 yesterday.
It was the June paper, and I was really elated with the A2:)
I know the paper was chicken feet and everybody got 80+, 90+
But it was a jump from fail, no? :D
I think I could have gotten 80 if I know my radians stuff well
cuz I have yet to finish the chapter on TYS.
No matter what, mustn't be complacent :)
I shall work harder and work for 90 in the Os!
yea I think I'm starting to expect a lot more from myself.
cuz I believe that in the Os, 75 for Math is definitely not an A1 grade.
and for those who still don't know about it, I've dropped A Math last last week.
(no, I don't think I should hide about such stuff)
Hence, I think I should really work hard not only for my E Math, but also the other subjects.
I don't think I will stop blogging before Prelims though
cuz I think it's the only thing I can do to make myself breathe.
yes, i think i do not have any life for now D:

I was casually talking to qinxin about this the other day.
Those two coloured skinnies really looked horrendous.
It makes me wonder what kind of people would come up with such ideas.
Imagine if people start to too, invent two-coloured tees.

uglily-drawn, but i suppose it will look something like this.
doesn't this remind you of the joker from cards?
that's what we thought. hah.

I'm happy that i've influenced bro to study:)
and I've trained him for his PSLE oral
hahaha..
and i glad that i also kind of a tiny bit influenced yilin to study.
you can call me a nerd, but he who laughs last, laughs BEST.
and most nerds don't even bother about helping others.
I don't think I'm like that:)
though for now, my results aren't at all fantastic, I do have a goal which I want to hit:)
while nerds study for the sake of studying.
look around you, don't you think they are usually like that?

I'm sorry that there's very few pics at my blog nowadays.
didn't camwhore much:)
anyway, I think my blog is mostly for myself and the closer people to read, so doesn't matter much too, isn't it?:)

66 DAYS TO Os

2008-08-11T03:55:00.000-07:00

I'm mugging, but it's not hard enough
I want to do more, yet I'm scared I'll get burned out.
I want to fight, score, excel. so badly.

yet again,
I want my life back.

Welcome to the mundane routine of Chew See Pui.
When studying is the one and only key to success.
and yea, the route to success is a lonely one
:(

The most happening thing that occurred to me recently was the growth of my second molar tooth.
only, i would add. Only.
hah.
yilin said I'm slower by 2 years.
yet when I asked around, nobody's molar's out, no?

Oral practices were good:)
I felt as though I was leeching from the girls.
they received so many resources from Mrs Chua D:

suddenly, I miss guides a lot.
i miss commanding during drills, working with the leaders, teaching the girls skills.
sian, hope everything's going fine.
it will be alright, will it?

My tagboard's back.
tag people, tag.
and I'll tag you back:)

2008-08-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

happy belated birthday singapore!! :D
ok, actually there wasn't much of the atmosphere this year
most was O level mood, hah.
Our last celebration in CTSS was damn fun
no,
BRAVISSIMO! :)
i loved the part when 4A1 and 4B1 decided to form a line and run around the quadrangle
and not forgetting largest circle formed by 4A1, 4B1, 4D1 and 4C2(?) to squeeze 4C1!
food drive was okok
don't think it had really served its purpose cuz most of the houses didn't respond
and so we ended up leaving them with this social centre below the block
oh, and my unit too didn't respond and this woman who's supposed to be the niece cum neighbour told me that she's deaf and hence couldn't hear my knockings :(
a bit sad..
makes me wonder whats the purpose of living so long since it means we have to be like that.

anyway, study session with yuen yi wasn't really productive to me.
he ended talking to me about many many people who he think are pretty, etc
haha..
and i felt damn insulted!! keep going on and on.
hannah and lynn was supposed to join us, but sigh:(
issac joined us later and etc, etc

and i didnt really celebrate national day.
only watched the parade on TV
yup jie min was the contingent commander
woots..
happy for her :)
and that this year's NDP guides contingent commander is a YA attached to CTS yea:)
it was basically about the same as the one we took part last year.
row C holding umbrella (i still have it!), form SINGAPORE
rained which i think was the second time in the history?
hah..
sad though, could see that 2 from the guides fell out
whereas ours was one or nil D:
then again, yilin said after sneaking in that this batch couldnt really endure
hmm..

aiya, dunno whether i'm wrong or what but i think SG's UGs are deproving :/
like that time i saw this guide wearing top without scarf, fbt no skirt plus letdown-hair with slippers.
like wth?
damn shit.
i just want to say that heng she's not from our school.
it's not wrong for girls to be vain
but pls la~~
in BRIGHT BLUE GG U??
at least change out into home clothes nobody can say anything right.
throw face..

on a brighter note, dad had just upgraded the Cable TV to HUB STATION!
weets...
free subscription of all the channels for this month.
but very wasted cuz i don't want to touch the TV anyway:(
caught a bit of "ORLUMPICS" though.
women's weightlifting & men's swimming.
i think SG's bryan tay's really fabulous! :D

and i'm happy that my pocket money have doubled due to night focus:)
then again, i think i will want to pay the class' misc. stuff, transport next time on my own.
Of course, in addition to the monthly $34.70 M1 Bill (screw the 7% GST)
and the saving-up for Prom
Cuz i think the sum is more than enough for me:)
yes i know you people are going to praise me for being such a fillial daughter :D

i don't think i'm going to cut my hair again
cuz i've found an alternative way to solve my 'willy wonka hairdo" :)
and no, i'm not trying to act cute by cutting bangs cuz i know it doesnt suit me
but it's because i was caught by mr chiang for fringe and being overly-obedient, i went to cut it REALLY above my brows D:
so now i'm crossing my fingers and hoping hard that it will grow
hah

meeting lyyn, issac , yuen yi and later on with shiying, kaien to practice oral tmr:)
O LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL'S ON TUESDAY!!
good luck people! take good care of your voice! :)

70 days to Os

2008-08-05T07:59:00.001-07:00

Prove the people whom despise you wrong.
The biggest losers in life are those who can't even believe in themselves in the first place.
for others to have faith in you, you have to first gain confidence
:)

and I was asking van and moo moo just now.
what if the plane that is supposed to ship the results from Cambridge crashes before it even gets to reach SEAB?
HOHOHO.

i don't want to look like WILLY WONKA.
guess i will cut my hair again,
be willy slanta!-quoted from keiko kusumoto.

sometimes, letting go can get so difficult
things, easier to be said than done.

2008-08-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

Si Pei will not snack after dinner.
Si Pei will make an effort to condition her hair at least twice a week.
Si Pei will have balanced fruits intake even despite the busy schedule so that she can egest everyday just like how it was before.
Si Pei will reach greater heights in the prelims and prove so many people so wrong
Si Pei will be a good MH and not flare up whenever the n-ballers pushes the responsibilities after using our class table. (sorry, this is really a fact)
Si Pei will read at least one English storybook everyweek.
Si Pei will finish her Math TYS, Chemistry Revision Booklet, Biology yearly TYS and Longman SEQ by 1 week before Prelims.
Si Pei will be a good sister and help her brother to prepare for PSLE.
Si Pei will save up for prom asap so that she wouldnt have to buy it after Os'.
Si Pei will not get cranky whenever morning's train get hell' squeezy.

i think i'm going to become vulgar and i don't understand why.
i'm starting to have this strong urge to curse and swear.
and did i mention?
i hate liars.
ESPECIALLY those species who claim to dislike dishonesty.
ironic eh, these people?

2008-08-01T06:26:00.000-07:00

didn't attended focus today cuz was tired.
also beacuse i miss my parents.
really.
this week have been like, wake up, see them.
go school, come home after focus at 10 yet they're still not yet back home,
wait for them before i sleep which would usually be 12+ 1am
dad's been busy at work and mum's helping him
so they were telling me that today free alr.
yet i only saw my bro when i arrived home just now.
:(
a bit sad.

but on a brighter note,
mum's been treating me damn well after night focus and her busy busy period:)

saw a lizard in the bathroom in the morning like yucks! disgusting..
i really didn't know what to do so woke mum up earlier to catch it
and instead of scolding me, not bothering, etc
she quickly went to grab it for me:)
and when I decided to get my uniform from the room
ANOTHER HUGE BLACK ONE DROPPED DOWN IN FRONT OF ME
and yes,
mum settled it:)

and i dunno why my house suddenly have so many lizards.
probably cuz it's been quite empty this week and lizards found ways to enter.
i think it's really a phobia
i wasn't that scared until many encounters
and now I thought I'VE DIED when I see one D:
unfortunately, lizards love me too much man:(
really!!!
they crawled on me twice or probably even thrice
eee... hair standing up up up

anyway, blogging now cuz i want to take a short break while waiting for parents.
received our results, not satisfied with it though a bit happy.
hah..
if my languages were scored at the usual standard, it would have been better:)
only THREE people don't have to get their parents to see Chiang/NgBL/E.T
and yes my mum have to see Chiang which i think should be ok.
cuz i believe that he'll only say the facts and not jump into conclusions :)

oral one-to-one with Mr Tan was quite ok.
Just that I keep missing out the personal exp part during conver.
so he said it's not going to etch an impression on examiners.
ok, i shall bear that in mind till 12 AUGUST
when i'm going to be the 6th in the whole cohort to take the exam.
yes, 2186/0006
OH MAN.
sway arh sway arh

i'm reading newspaper everyday, hoping that it will not be too late to help me in conv.
i think it's a really good habit, makes someone seems more knowledgeable.
well i think i shall keep up with it after Os:)
heh heh.

Prelim's coming on 25 AUGUST
jia you people, i really want everyone who deserve it to do well:)

i'm really tired worrying about friends.
i want all my friends to do well, but not all understand how i feel.
it's always like that, i have to hope really hard that nothing bad happens to her cuz of her foolishness, etc.
and now it gets to a pt that i don't want to care anymore.
haiz.

got to go study now.
work hard, people, you're not going to regret it in the future:)

80 DAYS TO Os D:

2008-07-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

ops, i'm blogging again.
okok, i wasnt trying to slack
it was a shun bian thing:)
heh
reached home, bathe, waiting for hair to dry, saw the com on. Use.
Then again, maybe they were just excuses.
I could have blow-dried my hair, SLEEP
but that's wasting electricity which will lead to more burning of coals, air pollution, then global warming.
k that's all bullshit.
they're just excuses anyway.

School is becoming more and more tiring everyday
Night Focus started, can't get use to studying till 9pm everyday
I'm seriously tired when i reach home everyday
and it's just the second day
must persevere.
if that's the only way to make me concentrate, then so be it.
ok cant that it anymore, shall sleep:)
bye people, and PERSEVERE!
87 MORE DAYS and all your effort will be paid off :)

2008-07-22T05:35:00.000-07:00

Lolx.. I'm here to make a short short update:))
okok, I'm not trying to slack!
I just happen to go online to send kapilan my testimonial
NOT THE FRIENDSTER TESTI!!!
but my graduation testimonial :D
yes i know i'm being damn lame

anyway, i deleted my friendster account quite some time ago
so this will explain why "Si Pei" is now missing from your friend's list
:)

Got to know some of our Term 3 results already.
generally neutral about my results i guess
haha..
Improvements, but not enough :)
ya i'm someone who cant live with contentment!!
and i scored a nice C5 for chinese.
not a high C5, it's 55
*FloRida's "Low" starts to play in the background*
nice one Chew See Pui.
at this rate A1 is yours in the Os.

It's stupid cuz I flunked my Paper 2 and Speech.
Speech was written out of point and I really have to thank the language score which helped in pulling the marks. 9/20
Compo pulled up this whole exam, damn heng.
and i wonder what was i thinking when doing paper 2.
maybe i had eaten fattening food the day before and instead of fats blocking artery
they blocked my nerve cells or some 2GB mini memory card in my huge coconut brain...
or MAYBE
training room's fengshui is BAD!
hohoho...

k la.
to be honest, it's my fault really
I think i wasn't alert enough.
shall not repeat the same mistake in prelim/ Os :)

and. i want to complain, but i bet yilin and the rest are sick of this already so I shall rant a little here..
I HATE TO BE WRONGED.
ok i wasn't exactly wronged
cuz you yourself knew what happened actually.
I have the rights to confront you on the spot cuz I am the victim
but hell, no
I'm not such an evil person to wreck your friendships
and besides, i know i have nothing to fear with a clear conscience.
what about you?

don't worry though
i'm not going to haunt you down and slap you or whatsoever
cuz it just isn't worth my time and energy
at all.
so don't worry so much
*smiley face*- cuz i don't want to be a bad person because of you.
and *smiley face* again

don't worry
i've not turned into a bitch
i just don't want to get bullied again.
and this time, a real *smiley face* right from my heart-
:)

89 DAYS TO O LEVEL!!
and 2 nights to Night Focussssss
jia you people!!! :D

2008-07-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

created another blog cuz quite sick of the previous one:)
believe it or not, the blog's pic above was drawn and edited by myself :D
ok i know it's believable since it wasn't perfectly nice or sth
i think the sepal was not really realistic :/

anyway, have taken a weekend break after Term 3
tomorrow onwards will be chionging for prelim (NIGHT FOCUS!); rest one weekend; then Os
time really passes damn fast and august is approaching
i really hope i can do well and prove the others wrong :)

oh, and i think my Term 3 results are gonna be sucky.
Mr Chiang says that confirm almost the whole class will not hit the target
which means, people will be scoring >24 for L1R5?
sian
i must be one of them.
I have put in effort for this exam but have i done my best?
I really doubt so.
Until i reach my goals, i will not be satisfied :(
ya maybe i should be contented with the slight improvements
but then again
if humans are so easily contented, then no one can really create miracles, no?
haha..

time is running out, but i believe that if i give it my best shot, i can make it :)
that is, if i drop a math
not that i can't cope with all the topics
but the thing is that i don't understand integration, differentiation, trigo
and i bet they're going to take up 80% of the paper
mum don't let cuz no more refunds alr :(
no matter what, i will not touch a math unless i reach my goals by prelim
ok, to be fair, maybe one grade below my target for each subject?
cuz according to Miss Si Pei's prediction, prelim is gonna be a BIG KILLER
you see, the students in the past have the first 3 months thing based on prelims
but this year don't have so i supposed the school is not going to take any mercy on the students
hahaha..
but then again, it's just Miss Si Pei's prediction la
want the accurate one you have to go find SHANG JUN

and i want to say something random!!!
i'm on xiaxue's side for her and dawn yang's blog war
seriously, though xiaxue may be quite vulgar, vain and agressive
at least she is straight forward and good-natured
she didn't hide about her photoshopping, nor her nose job, etc
whereas dawn yang seems to be die-also-must-deny that she went for comestic surgery?
and i can't stand the fact that she sue xiaxue despite the evidence against her
no point at all D:
i have nothing against small cosmetic surgeries
but when you are someone exactly different from your old self..
i mean
no matter how ugly i am, i will still want to see myself in the mirror
not some fake pretty plastic face
but then again,
maybe people have different thinkings?
maybe...

dawn during jc and after surgery
look, their necks look damn alike (the faint lines)
and their moles are on the same position

if i were xiaxue's huge huge fan, i will send it to stomp.com for sure :)

and for now, PICTURES! :D

Small 6/5'04 gathering :)

cute?:)

Hah, yilin's jealous that i'm obsessed with yanming, so i shall be obsessed with her too:D

YUP, yilin before and after removal of braces!

my wilted rose, half-completed:) as you can see, the shadings were done pretty badly

i'm still obsessed with ah ming ming

unglam-camwhoring

my skin's horrible these few days due to exam stress D:

yan ming again with van's/my hand.

and that's my oreo cheesecake:) nice nice

oh, that was the old blogskin. definitely nicer, but i changed the colour theme and shifted the right sections up:)

and it's 92 days to O level :/

ok shall get some sleep now
let's all jiayou for Os!!!
and
scold me when you see me online k people!:)

2008-07-19T07:52:00.001-07:00

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